It's been about 10 years now since our relationship ended. I remember thinking I would never be happy again. I remember going through a deep depression. I just wanted to sleep and be left alone. A broken heart has a way of making you feel like the world is coming to an end!
That was such a dark period in my life. I'm thankful for parents and friends that loved me and didn't allow me to stay in that place. Eventually things got back to normal, but it took a lot of prayer and faith that God would heal my brokenheart. It was through my prayer time and reading the Word that God showed me why I had to go through that period in my life. He was drawing me to himself for a purpose.
After my break up, I became closer to God than ever. I knew I needed Him just to help me make it through the day. It was during this time that God showed me why that relationship I wanted so badly could not work. You see, although my ex boyfriend was a good guy, he was not the Man of God I needed him to be. To be fair, I also was not the Woman of God I needed to be. It was then that God begin to establish me in His word and train me to be who I needed to be in Christ.
God used my heartbreak to prepare me for ministry. He showed me what I should be looking for in a husband and who I needed to be as a wife. He taught me how to love myself and how to enjoy my singleness. It was a few years later that I became the single's ministry leader at my local church. I encouraged others in their singleness as I encouraged myself and at that time it all made sense.
I wish I could say that life was a box of chocolates every since that discovery, but I would be lying! I have experienced so many changes since I've been walking in my purpose. The attacks have been great and I have experienced my share of failures over the years. Through it all, God has been faithful and has never allowed me to stay down for long. I now have a better understanding of the beauty of redemption and grace.
Tonight, I am grateful for my friend reminding me of my past. It has shown me just how good God is! He healed my brokenheart and molded me into the woman I am today. For that, I am truly grateful. He has even allowed me to take everything I've gone through (good and bad) and use it to help others not to make the same mistakes I did.
For those that may be experiencing a brokenheart today, I want to tell you that life does go on. Things will get easier and the sun will shine again! The day will come when you will look back and give God some serious praise for what he brought you through and how He kept your mind! God will send real love at the right time and it will be better than any of the relationships you ever had. Let Him do a work in you so you will be ready to receive The One He Has For You.